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Things Have Been Rough

There is nothing more cumbersome than not being able to escape shit when it is coming at you from multiple directions. Even worse, when shit from at least one direction just doesn’t seem to give any indication that it’ll be easing any time soon. Talk about a drag.

It’s really brought myself to the forefront and what I choices I have, what I could realistically manage on my own, and what I need to just do. However, making a plan and putting it into action is kind of difficult when you’re me because I’m queen of that kind of shit. It’s also a matter of pride, not that I have much right now. How much pride can you possibly have when you’re married to a guy that, ultimately, probably just doesn’t give a shit? I haven’t done anything that I can seriously be proud of in a while and that’s eating away at my self-confidence. I need to do something for me and soon.

One thing that helped take some of that “I’m trying but not really getting anywhere” pressure off was stepping down as an admin on Veracity. I was trying to be as helpful as I could, but the truth was, I just wasn’t. I didn’t have the experience and aptitude to take care of things to help Jenn out where she most needed it. Thankfully someone else stepped up and there’s a good team in play at various levels to help take care of things now. Communication with members is up and running and that’s always a good thing!

This week I suffered from either a flu or, I’m thinking, tonsillitis. I went to a manager’s house for a get-together and halfway through I started feeling absolutely crummy. I ignored it and stuck it out for another hour until a bunch of others started leaving and made my way home from there. When I got home, I was just overwhelmed with body aches and chills. I’m not sure if my skin feeling sensitive to everything would fall under either of those, but I had that, too. I went to work the next day not feeling as crappy, but that didn’t last long. Thankfully my shift was short and when the husband picked me up, we stopped by the supermarket to get some illness goodies. He was inside and apparently a little old lady asked him what he was looking for and he told her about his sick wife. She asked about my symptoms and from that she surmised I had the flu, so she helped him pick out some teas1, flu medicines, honey and lemons. She instructed him on what I should do with it all and wished me to feel better. What a sweet gesture! It makes me miss my mommy. She’d be doing something like that for me. I downed some NyQuil2, tried some of the tea3 and slept. Thankfully I had the next two days off. I slowly felt better day after day, but I still have issues with my tonsils and for whatever reason, my taste buds are messed up. It’s as if my bitter ones are still at 100% but all of the others have been anywhere from 25-75%. It’s kind of gross. I’d say it’s worse than having a completely stuffed up nose and not being able to tasting anything at all! I looked it up and it apparently can happen if you take too many antihistamines, which I did the first day I started treating everything in case I was having some sort of allergy attack.

Now the husband is suffering from some form of what I had. He’s coughing, though, which isn’t a symptom I was suffering from, thankfully. He had an awful day of overtime today/tonight and he came home tired and sick as hell, which strangely enough, resembled him drunk and ornery. Needless to say, I wasn’t amused at his attitude, even if he is sick and had a bad day. I actually was stuck at work for almost 2 hours after I clocked out, waiting for him to pick me up. I was getting more pissed thinking he’d gone out after work to have some fun with his friends4 but he really wasn’t let off work until almost 2 hours after I was off. Two ornery people doesn’t make for a good time, but other than the messages I sent him wondering where the eff he was, I didn’t shit on him more since he was so bad off. I hate when I want to be angry5 but I should actually be feeling sympathetic. Eugh. Talk about a conundrum.

My mom tells me that the husband and my dad are so very much alike in their personalities… I really feel for her more than ever, since they’ll be married 28 years this year. *lazy*

  1. I don’t like tea so I asked him if necessary, pick me out something fruity. ↩
  2. I had no intention of staying awake for the rest of the day feeling like I did. ↩
  3. Ew. ↩
  4. Which has been his track record lately. ↩
  5. Which I am, since one ultimately can’t help how they feel. ↩
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I Remember You, Sort Of…

Time for an update on life!

  1. Saturday was my grandma’s 80th birthday celebration. I love spending time drinking, eating & talking with my family. They’re awesome!
  2. Today, I participated in my company’s annual Southern California bowling tournament for the first time with 4 other of my coworkers. We bowled fairly well, but not well enough to bring home a trophy, unfortunately.
  3. There has been a lot of driving back and forth from SD to LA. Sometimes together with the husband, sometimes alone for either of us.
  4. Saturday of last week, I played a good game of capture the flag with about 161 of my friends from high school. I ruined a new pair of flats, but my team won and it was great fun! I miss and love my high school friends.
  5. Wednesday, the husband will be leaving for Costa Rica for a week for his dad’s wedding. I’m not going due to the last minute decision that he WAS going, since it would’ve been double the hassle to try and get both of our passports replaced and costly, because they’d have to be expedited.2
  6. Mid March, I’ll be going to the Zinfandel Festival with my parents, specifically the party at Tobin James. It’ll be 3 years since my parents took the husband and me for our first official foray into wine tasting. I’m excited :D
  7. My mom is making it her mission to get me down to see Costa Rican, and since I’m not going with the husband this time around, she’s planning on a family trip during December(?) of 2012. I love my mom :)

There are still two more LA trips due in the next two weeks, primarily to drop the husband off at the airport & pick him up… I’m eager to not go anywhere soon, though. Also, there may be a month in the near future that I’ll be spending up in LA, at my parents’ house, spending more time with friends since it’s pretty damn lonely down here with just the husband and I. There’s a lot of tension and we both need some space, but I’m finally looking at it as a good thing for me as well, and not just the whole giving him space part. I need some too, and there’s no better place to do it than with my awesome parents and family and friends :D

In other news, things have slowed down at Veracity, but I think it’s because it’s a new board and there’s so many things going on and we’re still working out kinks and the growing pains, and all… There are still some great activities and topics to take part in so, come and join! Tell ‘em Mika sent you ;)

  1. Give or take ↩
  2. I don’t know how the husband didn’t learn this lesson after our passports showed up last minute before our trip to Vancouver to take an Alaskan cruise back in ’08. ↩
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It’s Been Awhile…

I’m not exactly sure what happened, but somehow I managed to let quite a while go by without posting. How sad.

I’ve been doing my usual thing, as well as trying to fight off whatever sickness has decided to plague me recently. I’m fairly sure it is/was bronchitis, but now it’s less the mucus in my chest and an annoying occasional dry cough with a painful throat. Regardless of what my symptoms are, it’s been sitting around for 2+ weeks and I’m SO over it. Did I mention that it kind of robbed me of my voice for several days? Yeah, when you work where you have to talk for 85% of your job, it kind of sucks.

In the meantime, I’ve been watching Dexter. I have to say, I’m kind of in love. There’s nothing like watching a show on fictional serial killers and watching the results of their crimes come to light and even watching them occur… If you didn’t know already, I have a morbid interest in serial killers. However, the more violent & gruesome, the better! I’m more interested in Ed Gein than I am Ted Bundy. Strangulation? Meh… Mutilated corpses left around with some cannibalism and necrophilia? Oh yeah, bring it on! Yup. This is me. My parents are slightly disturbed, too.

Other than that, I’ve been spending time on Veracity, trying to keep some drama llamas at bay. They’re the type of people who might not be trolling on purpose (so they’ve said), but they just don’t accept that not everyone is interested in hearing the way they like to present themselves. I find them more obnoxious on a nit-picky level since they don’t like to capitalize anything or use decent sentence structure, grammar or spelling. Instead of being overtly obnoxious now, they’re cut it back, thankfully. It doesn’t mean people still don’t like them and wish they’d go back to where they came from, but if they’re playing nice, that’s fine with me.

And now, since it’s overdue and I’m PMSy and need a little more of this right now…

  1. Watching the husband get all excited about his adult soccer league.
  2. Gunny laying on me while I lay in bed.
  3. Learning I was going to get training time at work.
  4. Getting a full night’s sleep without coughing.
  5. More free porn!1
  6. Getting compliments from coworkers.
  7. The husband spooning me in bed.
  1. I kind of have a collection going but I haven’t watched any of it… ↩
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