The other night, trying to figure out what was going on with the husband, I called and ultimately was on the phone with my MIL¹ for over an hour. It was definitely not a smart thing to do, considering this woman doesn’t think very highly of me. Hell, why mince words? She does not like me, might even hate me, and would rather see her son with his ex girlfriend.

I never got the chance to deliver a good first impression on this woman², and there’s definitely nothing I can do to change her mind now, but boy am I glad she got to unload the past few years of our relationship problems off her chest! Somehow, she almost had me convinced that she could be of help to our relationship, if I just let her in more! Thank goodness my brain kicked in shortly after those thoughts blew through. Her only interest is to help her son, and more than likely, she’s more self-serving than altruistic when it comes to how he gets that happiness³.

I’d love to make all of our lives easier and prove myself to her, but there’s just no doing that. She made up her mind years ago and while she’ll be relatively nice to my face, ultimately she’s not invested in loving me for real, as much as she’ll say it. It kind of makes me disgusted with myself that I gave in and have said I love her too, just because I felt weird with her saying it to me and I didn’t say it back. I can’t stand people who refuse to let their lives get easier by being flexible and willing to forgive or have their mind changed.

I know I can be in my own way a lot of the time, and we’re all our own worst enemy, but Christ!

The facts of the matter are, she doesn’t like me, she won’t change her mind, there’s nothing I can do to change it and I will no longer be doing anything to try and change it. She doesn’t deserve it. And well, the husband doesn’t deserve my efforts either, but I’ve got to start somewhere with the whole “I can’t change everyone’s mind” thing.