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There’s nothing like tossing & turning, trying to get to sleep and all the while feeling that strange tickle in your lungs like you need to cough, constantly. I bought soups from Vons, some grapefruit juice and more cold medicine. Oh, and fabric softener because I ran out and need to do a bunch of laundry… eventually. I also need to wash a ton of dishes because I’ve been silently protesting cleaning the apartment. Who am I kidding? I just didn’t fucking feel like it. I still don’t, especially now.

I did manage a win in that Devin cleaned up all the junk mail that had accumulated on the floor and took out the trash. Since it’s a surprise whenever he cleans, I asked him about it and he said that the trash had started stinking, so he took it out. If there’s anything that’ll prompt me to clean, it’s stink. Unfortunately, I can’t smell anything lately, so I didn’t get that inspiration. I told him it was likely all the dirty dishes in the sink that stink, anyway, but I’m sure the trash didn’t help. He did say he’d wash half of the dishes if I did half.

I hate coughing.

I missed a day of NaBloPoMo. After being ditched for wine tasting yesterday by the husband, I was feeling the cabin fever after spending almost 2 straight days of watching TV shows online and not doing much else. Thankfully, while my friend Jessica and her friend James were hanging out at her place being sick, we were all hungry so I went with them for some Chick-Fil-A. We then went to the bar near by and spent a couple of hours watching James cockblock.

I had 1.5 drinks, but I smoked and so I’m quite feeling the decrease in my immunity system right now. Serves me right. I was feeling better and now I’m feeling worse off. I’m primarily suffering from drowsiness¹, coughing up phlegm and congestion. At least my throat doesn’t hurt too much as that would make my job that much harder. It sucks to have talking as a predominant part of your job when you’re ill.

On another note, I’m finally figuring out how to improve Gunny’s diet. The husband picked up some Iams since we ran out of her good diet food² and I noticed she starts whining for food almost immediately after finishing it off. I can ignore her for the most part when I’m awake, but it’s the most infuriating thing when I’m trying to get as much sleep as I can before work or while I feel like poop! I don’t know why I never Googled it before. It seems like such obvious knowledge that I should’ve had a long time ago³. Needless to say, I’m more aware of what she needs in her food and what to stay away from, in regards to the main ingredients. Thankfully I have two cans of the wet good diet food that I can give her in the meantime until I can make my way to Petco for more of the dry stuff.

There is nothing more cumbersome than not being able to escape shit when it is coming at you from multiple directions. Even worse, when shit from at least one direction just doesn’t seem to give any indication that it’ll be easing any time soon. Talk about a drag.

It’s really brought myself to the forefront and what I choices I have, what I could realistically manage on my own, and what I need to just do. However, making a plan and putting it into action is kind of difficult when you’re me because I’m queen of that kind of shit. It’s also a matter of pride, not that I have much right now. How much pride can you possibly have when you’re married to a guy that, ultimately, probably just doesn’t give a shit? I haven’t done anything that I can seriously be proud of in a while and that’s eating away at my self-confidence. I need to do something for me and soon.

One thing that helped take some of that “I’m trying but not really getting anywhere” pressure off was stepping down as an admin on Veracity. I was trying to be as helpful as I could, but the truth was, I just wasn’t. I didn’t have the experience and aptitude to take care of things to help Jenn out where she most needed it. Thankfully someone else stepped up and there’s a good team in play at various levels to help take care of things now. Communication with members is up and running and that’s always a good thing!

This week I suffered from either a flu or, I’m thinking, tonsillitis. I went to a manager’s house for a get-together and halfway through I started feeling absolutely crummy. I ignored it and stuck it out for another hour until a bunch of others started leaving and made my way home from there. When I got home, I was just overwhelmed with body aches and chills. I’m not sure if my skin feeling sensitive to everything would fall under either of those, but I had that, too. I went to work the next day not feeling as crappy, but that didn’t last long. Thankfully my shift was short and when the husband picked me up, we stopped by the supermarket to get some illness goodies. He was inside and apparently a little old lady asked him what he was looking for and he told her about his sick wife. She asked about my symptoms and from that she surmised I had the flu, so she helped him pick out some teas¹, flu medicines, honey and lemons. She instructed him on what I should do with it all and wished me to feel better. What a sweet gesture! It makes me miss my mommy. She’d be doing something like that for me. I downed some NyQuil², tried some of the tea³ and slept. Thankfully I had the next two days off. I slowly felt better day after day, but I still have issues with my tonsils and for whatever reason, my taste buds are messed up. It’s as if my bitter ones are still at 100% but all of the others have been anywhere from 25-75%. It’s kind of gross. I’d say it’s worse than having a completely stuffed up nose and not being able to tasting anything at all! I looked it up and it apparently can happen if you take too many antihistamines, which I did the first day I started treating everything in case I was having some sort of allergy attack.

Now the husband is suffering from some form of what I had. He’s coughing, though, which isn’t a symptom I was suffering from, thankfully. He had an awful day of overtime today/tonight and he came home tired and sick as hell, which strangely enough, resembled him drunk and ornery. Needless to say, I wasn’t amused at his attitude, even if he is sick and had a bad day. I actually was stuck at work for almost 2 hours after I clocked out, waiting for him to pick me up. I was getting more pissed thinking he’d gone out after work to have some fun with his friends⁴ but he really wasn’t let off work until almost 2 hours after I was off. Two ornery people doesn’t make for a good time, but other than the messages I sent him wondering where the eff he was, I didn’t shit on him more since he was so bad off. I hate when I want to be angry⁵ but I should actually be feeling sympathetic. Eugh. Talk about a conundrum.

My mom tells me that the husband and my dad are so very much alike in their personalities… I really feel for her more than ever, since they’ll be married 28 years this year.

I’m not exactly sure what happened, but somehow I managed to let quite a while go by without posting. How sad.

I’ve been doing my usual thing, as well as trying to fight off whatever sickness has decided to plague me recently. I’m fairly sure it is/was bronchitis, but now it’s less the mucus in my chest and an annoying occasional dry cough with a painful throat. Regardless of what my symptoms are, it’s been sitting around for 2+ weeks and I’m SO over it. Did I mention that it kind of robbed me of my voice for several days? Yeah, when you work where you have to talk for 85% of your job, it kind of sucks.

In the meantime, I’ve been watching Dexter. I have to say, I’m kind of in love. There’s nothing like watching a show on fictional serial killers and watching the results of their crimes come to light and even watching them occur… If you didn’t know already, I have a morbid interest in serial killers. However, the more violent & gruesome, the better! I’m more interested in Ed Gein than I am Ted Bundy. Strangulation? Meh… Mutilated corpses left around with some cannibalism and necrophilia? Oh yeah, bring it on! Yup. This is me. My parents are slightly disturbed, too.

Other than that, I’ve been spending time on Veracity, trying to keep some drama llamas at bay. They’re the type of people who might not be trolling on purpose (so they’ve said), but they just don’t accept that not everyone is interested in hearing the way they like to present themselves. I find them more obnoxious on a nit-picky level since they don’t like to capitalize anything or use decent sentence structure, grammar or spelling. Instead of being overtly obnoxious now, they’re cut it back, thankfully. It doesn’t mean people still don’t like them and wish they’d go back to where they came from, but if they’re playing nice, that’s fine with me.

And now, since it’s overdue and I’m PMSy and need a little more of this right now…

1. Watching the husband get all excited about his adult soccer league.
2. Gunny laying on me while I lay in bed.
3. Learning I was going to get training time at work.
4. Getting a full night’s sleep without coughing.
5. More free porn!¹
6. Getting compliments from coworkers.
7. The husband spooning me in bed.

Last night after work, I felt like utter crap. My body was not liking me. I don’t know if it was because I was dehydrated or hungry or if it was something else. My stomach was hurting, I had cramps, I felt light-headed and just out of it. I can’t remember the last time I felt that badly. Going to bed seemed to help, even though I could smell my husband’s stink (he prefers to shower in the mornings before work, and I’m the opposite) and that didn’t help my stomach.

I did manage to do well on french fries yesterday. Today was an early work meeting and then I was thankfully scheduled for a day shift (I’m usually working Saturday evenings). I woke up early to take the husband to work, came home and snoozed for an hour, went to the meeting, came home and snoozed for another hour and a half. That extra time was just what I needed.

Right now I’m waiting for a staff meeting to commence for us over at Ecstasy MB via ooVoo. I’m watching The Parent Trap (ah, pre-crazy Lindsay) on ABC Family and out of all the times I usually catch it on TV, this is the first time I’ve seen them include scenes involving the piercing of the years early in the movie (before they switch places) and tasting of the wine when the mom, grandfather and Lindsay’s character is at the supper table. I think I usually see it on the Disney channel, and they’ll edit those parts out. ABC Family is a subsidiary of Disney, but apparently this channel has a more “mature” audience. Obviously since have you SEEN Secret Life of the American Teenager? The topics on that show alone are directed at an older audience (even though most of the main characters are younger high schoolers).

Dennis Quaid is quite yummy. I have a thing for older, handsome guys versus young and cute. That wasn’t always the case, of course lol, and there are some exceptions (Taylor Lautner, anyone? bwahaha).