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Le Sigh

It has been over a month since I last blogged and that blog was paid for. I can’t even blame it on “life” happening because I honestly am not constantly on the go. I do have a steady social life in various mediums and on different settings, but the amount of time I sit at home, on my ass, on this computer doing absolutely nothing but chuckling and ಠ_ಠ on Reddit or YouTube is kind of ridiculous. The most productive thing I’ve managed to do is thoroughly clean my apartment’s living room. It’s seriously so clean, you guys!! I even vacuumed. Yeah, take THAT in.

I haven’t blogged because that means I have to actually think about my life and then I start having minor panic attacks on the inside. Things aren’t serious enough for them to manifest outside of my mind and chest, but I might shed a tear or two. You mean I have to think about the state of my relationship with my (ex)husband? Ew. Or how about the fact that I find my cat so damn annoying lately? I’m plagued by a lot of negative thoughts the past couple of weeks. I’m definitely on a downswing and it seems to coincide with others – or I just shines through more so than anything positive others have to say. There have been an inordinate amount of break-ups the past few weeks, though. That’s sad. I really don’t want to turn this return into a bitch fest, though, so…

Back in mid-April I visited friends & family in L.A. and I went to Six Flags Magic Mountain for the first time in YEARS with my brother and his girlfriend. It was great. They’d just opened the park to weekday use and for being so early in the season, virtually every coaster that was open was walk-on. For having spent so many years having not been on a roller coaster, that was damn amazing.

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I think I should trademark the heavy sigh. I seem to do it even unintentionally and people wonder what’s wrong. Now that my mind’s gone blank, I’ll just leave this post at… The End.

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I Don’t Like To Think Too Much

There have been quite a few times where I have opened up a new post page and wanted to write something, anything down, but I just haven’t. I think it comes down just not wanting to think about the random things that have been occurring in my world lately. There hasn’t been anything particularly bad, but I don’t care to have it all swarming in my head when it comes time to express it.

For one, the ex hasn’t been his typical awesome self. Ignoring me for days on end, if not an almost an entire week, and subsequently leaving me without transportation, save for my own two feet and the kindness of Jess and a few other guys on the random occasion. I honestly can’t complain too much about having to walk, primarily to work and back, since it’s the only real exercise I really get lately. I even bought a new pair of walking/running shoes to help with the aching feet, since making the 15-20 minute trek to and from in my work shoes wasn’t working out. Yes, I have other pairs of shoes to make due, but aside from a pair of running shoes I’ve had since I before I was out of the military, they weren’t too great for my feet in that respect either. They’re really light and ever-so-slightly put a literal bounce in my step. It’s kind of amazing how I forget what a good pair of shoes can feel like!

I had my first wax a few weeks ago. Not just any, though, but a full-on Brazilian! I was actually amazed that the part that I thought would hurt the most, didn’t at all! I also got a great deal for being a first-time customer. The price to maintain the wax is fairly steep at the place I went to, but I may keep it going for at least a little bit to see if it what they say is true if you keep waxing. I’m talking about the hair growing back slower, it being less painful, the growing back less itchy & annoying vs. shaving, etc. I was kind of sad that I didn’t get to put the landscaping to use, though, LOL. What a waste. It was amazing how smooth I felt and NAKED!

My best friend here, Jess, is moving about 40 minutes away, to the north. When she told me, it brought tears to my eyes on a night I already felt bad. She works closer to where she’ll be living, but she still has school down here, so I won’t NOT see her, but I definitely won’t be able to see her as often as I was, which makes me real sad.

I had a night where I had a pretty bad anxiety attack. It was brought on by learning the ex had blocked me from Facebook and he had started ignoring me completely and I was trying to figure out what to do with the divorce situation, as well as myself and how I’m going to live my life after it all. Needless to say, there are a LOT of things I need to take by the horns and tackle to get started. I think it’s a little more difficult for me since I don’t have a deadline to stick to. I think I’m motivated more by deadlines as it forces me to get things done. It didn’t help me in school, but with actual life responsibilities, it feels like a different story. One of the things I’m going to try and achieve is getting on full-time status with my job. There’s a lot of free time that I could do without having and I could definitely do with the income, especially if I’ll be living on my own in the near future!

As for other random things I’ve been thinking about, mostly prefaced by “Why…”:

  • … did I consider it a good idea to stay up until 6 in the morning today? It is my weekend, but I still will never really enjoy being awake while the sun rises.
  • … do I get myself into the strange situations with boys that I do? There’s been nothing bad, just awkward and not conducive to becoming a stronger, wiser individual.
  • Should I let Gunny continue to try and annoy the hell out of me in attempt to get me to feed her or give in? Eh, it’s time for another feeding, anyway. Give in, it is.
  • … did I think it wouldn’t be so cold out when I decided to have the rare at-home cigarette? As a person with experience in weather forecasting, I should know that the coolest part of the day is in the early morning hours.

One thing I would really like to do is get check-ups across the board. Girly bits, general health, and in particular, my tonsils! I have a hell of time with them being swollen so often, and that’s on top of them being larger than normal anyway. I also have problems with tonsilloliths1, especially since they actually cause some bleeding when I managed to dislodge them and I’m sure they don’t help with my breath. Talk about some appetizing conversation for breakfast, huh? I don’t get large ones like some of the examples provided on the wiki page, but they’re numerous and it’s not fun.

66/366 - hot chocolate 67/366 - oil change time 68/366 - laser eyes 69/366 - Something to drink 70/366 - high mileage 71/366 - These things get me flossing. 72/366 - Karaoke time. 73/366 - WTF bag? Why u no open without ripping? 74/366 - This stuff smells delicious! 75/366 - Controlling what my iPod is playing from afar. 76/366 - Wearing my glasses for longer... 77/366 - Beautiful day, if I do say so myself heh 78/366 - Our safety rewards cane in. Starbucks, yay! 79/366 - Another walk home from work. 80/366 - I like yellow stuff on my fries. 82/366 - Taco time with Jesse! 83/366 - Hey kitty, you're not supposed to lay in there... 84/366 - Sometimes, you just need a little support in some places. 85/366 - Another walk home, version slightly wet and dark. 86/366 - Dumdum time. 87/366 - An early start on the easter candy. 88/366 - Working on homemade pico for tacos tonight. 89/366 - dreary afternoon.

  1. Tonsil stones. They’re gross and uncomfortable! ↩
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I Don’t Do Titles

Worked sucked today. More specifically, the customers did. I had a couple of blatantly rude guys come through the drive through, which honestly, isn’t all that common. While they didn’t necessarily get to me, a combination of them and other not-so-awesome customers just wouldn’t let me come out of the grump mood I was put into. I’m finding it’s becoming harder to “fake it until I make it”, especially when I’m stuck in that one position consistently and all day long. I can’t lie, though, I did decline the offer of a different position I’m also not fond of and stayed in the hole. That was for the last half of my shift, so I can only blame myself for that much.

According to some of my Facebook friends, though, I wasn’t the only one who experienced poor customers today. It seemed like something was in the air today.

After all of that, I wanted to decompress with a certain vice. While I would normally aim for going to a bar to get a good buzz going, that’s not what I was really wanting. Unfortunately, I don’t really have a go-to source for the type of… uh… exercise I wanted :lol: Damn.

I made the trek to and from work on foot today. While it sprinkled a tad initially on my way home and was pretty damn cold, too, they weren’t bad walks. I treated myself to a hazelnut hot chocolate from Starbucks on my home, 1) because I have a gift card kind of burning a hole in my wallet and 2) it would help keep my hand(s) warm for the last half of my walk. I should’ve gone for an espresso drink, though. Coffee brings me peace, as weird as that may sound. While I may be energized after I’ve finished drinking it, in the mean time, it just calms and kind of centers me. I definitely could have used that after work.

Jess picked me up after class tonight and we went to Target, followed by going to her house where she grilled some steaks and I made potatoes au gratin. It was pretty damn delicious and it was the perfect answer to the everyday question of “what am I going to have for dinner?” I have stuff to cook, but the meat that’s been in the refrigerator has turned brown so I think I’ll have to throw it out and everything else is frozen. Now I’m home, with a decent amount of sleep in my eyes, but I have stuff on my mind that I wish wasn’t there. The kind of stuff that just sits there, torturing me. It’s not bad per se, but it definitely doesn’t make me feel good. Ah, crushes… Yup. Stupid crushes.

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Auld Lang Syne

Well, I’ve slept away most of my day away, the only one I have this week, other than Monday. But that’s okay, since I don’t have much else to do and need rest to get rid of this sickness I have. I do think I’m feeling better. The mucous is definitely loosened and easier to cough out and I’m not dying so much overall.

As promised, I would provide a retelling of my week up in L.A. with my friends & family that was more positive then the last two posts I provided.

Tuesday was one of my best friend’s 25th birthday. Her boyfriend planned a wonderful surprise party for her at a sushi bar. I was late, unfortunately, and she was already wasted, but the night was fun nonetheless. After that was over, her older sister and I went to the bar I frequent up there to finish up with Porn Star Karaoke and she was a hoot. She loved it.

Amber's 25th

The next day, my friends from the Marinara group got together to do our Secret Santa gift exchange and make a Hanukkah dinner. We called it Chrismukkah, of course. Our out of town Vanessa was in town from DC and she, along with the other Vanessa, Ryan and Alissa, provided quite a delicious dinner of tri-tip, latkes and matzo ball soup! The rest of us just stayed out the kitchen since we wouldn’t know what we were doing. We lit the menorah for the 3rd night of Hanukkah and exchanged gifts. Of course, we finished up with some highly offensive and questionable rounds of Telestrations.

Chrismukkah Chrismukkah

Christmas with the family was different. We celebrated with all the extended family on the 25th, instead of the 24th like we have done for forever. So, for Christmas eve dinner, it was just the parents, brother and I and we enjoyed tri-tip1, homemade mashed potatoes 2, Yorkshire pudding3, and baked asparagus. The brother and I watched most of Forrest Gump before receiving our traditional Christmas Eve presents of PJs from mom & dad. He got a set of Angry Bird PJs and my mom got me a 3-piece set of pink ones with pants, shorts and a long-sleeved top. I tried trading my brother for his, but he wouldn’t go for it ;)

For Christmas day, my brother woke me up around 8:30 in the morning after he started making coffee. I started the day with some coffee & Bailey’s, followed by champagne. After opening presents and finally drinking the Civet coffee I bought my dad for Father’s day4, we got ready and head over to my uncle & aunt’s house. We were the first there in regards to those who weren’t already staying there. Over the course of several hours, my grandma counted at least 37 people in the end, who’d gathered to share Christmas in that house. We had our usual tamales, refried beans, salad & ambrosia dinner and a lot of wine. Nobody suffered from any accidents, there weren’t any fights, everything was very nice as usual. That’s why I love my family. Although, I do wish I still got presents from everyone like I did when I was little lol! That’s okay, I was able to give most of my close extended family something and that made me happy :)

Now, here’s my Christmas haul:

  • Navy scarf (from Sandra)
  • Lindt Lindor chocolates (from Sandra)
  • Handmade necklace & earrings (from Vanessa, my Marinara secret santa)
  • Handmade bookmarks (from Vanessa, my Marinara secret santa)
  • Tiltpod (from Jenn, my Lavish secret santa)
  • Box of liqueur filled chocolates (from Jenn, my Lavish secret santa)
  • USAF sweatshirt with the Hap Arnold on it (from dad)
  • Pink PJs (from mom & dad)
  • $15 iTunes giftcard (from brother)
  • Burt’s Bees lip balm, tic tacs, coffee mug, lotto scratchers, nail files (from santa)
  • Check for $$$ (from mom & dad)
  • $30 cash (from grandma)

The end :)

  1. Again. ↩
  2. Thanks to me. ↩
  3. That was my first time ever having it and except for the under-cooked middle, it was good. ↩
  4. It’s definitely not as bitter as regular coffee. ↩
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December, Oh December

Thanksgiving: Part Deux

I’m overdue for the Thanksgiving post. What can I say? I just haven’t felt like posting. I’m lazy. I would’ve actually posted last night, but my host decided to go down for who knows what reason. So here we go…

I spent the long weekend up in Los Angeles with my friends and family. I actually got to celebrate Thanksgiving two days in a row since we had a small gathering for dinner on Thursday with just my mom, dad and grandma. Following that on Friday was the big gathering at my uncle-in-law’s house1 which included at least 30 immediate & extended family members. The spread was delicious in both cases and I have to admit, my dad’s smoked turkey beat out Kevin’s2. It was SO dang juicy! Apparently my parents brined it the day prior.

For the small dinner, my mom did a lot for just us four people. Mashed potatoes3, sweet potatoes, salad, green bean casserole, stuffing, rolls, cranberry sauce and the turkey. Everything was pretty much from scratch except for the can of cranberry sauce, rolls and technically my dad took care of the turkey as it smoked. I’m surprised I didn’t go for seconds!

I had taken the train from San Diego after 3 hours of sleep and waking up at 5:45 in the morning. I didn’t nap at any point during the day, until after dinner. It was served around 3pm and I was pretty much passed out on the couch by 3:45pm, complete with drool. After not seeing my grandma for a while, I felt bad for not actually spending more time with her before my dad took her home. I was still passed out by the time I should’ve driven her. *sleep* Woops *lazy*

Saturday was spent with my friends, playing our board games, eating and just talking. We also drew names for our annual secret santa :) I’m really going to have to concentrate to get just the right thing for the person I drew… While, in the mean time, I’ve been adding stuff to my Elfster wishlist like crazy. I posted it to my Facebook and Twitter just for the record, not that I’m expecting anything from anybody. FOR REAL! I’ve actually had a tough time trying to figure out what I actually want, if someone were to ask. This has helped a little. Just finding random things online and adding them to the list has been fun.

If you hadn’t seen or heard, I chopped my hair off! I’m very happy with it! I took in a picture of Dianna Agron (Quinn from Glee) as a guideline for how I wanted it done. The stylist was very good and I’m very pleased that it came out so well, especially since I wanted something pretty specific. Huzzah! I just have to remember to use less shampoo & conditioner in the shower and practice different style techniques with it :)

Haircut Haircut
  1. My uncle’s wife’s brother. ↩
  2. The uncle-in-law. ↩
  3. Which I made after she boiled them, for the first time ever! ↩
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