Do you know what’s more annoying than one person constantly talking about the same subject constantly? Several people doing it. Not only can it be annoying, but when you’re not a member of that particular group, it’s pretty isolating. Yes, that may sound dramatic, but even if the group isn’t really that big, one can still end up feeling that way. I do.

I’m female. I’m married. What comes next? Most would think “Ooooh! Babies!” Yeah. Not here. Not yet. Not for a while at least. I’m not ready, the husband’s not ready, our relationship isn’t ready – I don’t even need to explain why there are no kids [yet] because it’s a choice, and a personal one at that. The general populace just presumes that children follow most unions of the marriage sort (or these days, even preceding one). It’s kind of tough on its own to deal with questioning relatives and your own random hormonal urges.

As far as what’s annoying? Why do I suddenly feel so aware and surrounded by women with children, a new baby or pregnant? I’ve kind of felt this way for the past 6 months to a year. When I was in the military, popping out babies was pretty common, or knowing people who had children. What feels uncommon is coming back to civilian life before I turn 23 and knowing people from high school who have a kid, or maybe even two! To be fair, anyone around my age in the military who had or were joining the kid club made me feel at odds as well.

It seems now that everywhere I look now, I’m faced with pregnancy, babies and/or children. It’s hit hardest since my best friend gave birth to her son a little less than 2 weeks ago. My best friend, a mom? You’ve got to be shitting me! The boy is THE cutest thing with dimples I’ve ever seen. But I will have to admit, I believe I’ve lost her to new mama-hood lol. I could say I feel left behind, but I don’t. I just feel like I’m in a different circle on the same plane. She’s still my best friend, but she’s a mother now. That’s so fantastic for her. Motherhood (fatherhood as well) is a very special thing and I can’t wait until I experience it.

However, I’m not on that path right now. I know others become overwhelmed with friends, family and even complete strangers starting or continuing families for other, maybe more personal, reasons. I’m simply just annoyed lol. I can’t help what I feel, it’s just there. There’s no disrespect intended for the joy of starting/continuing on a family, so please don’t take this rambling entry as such! I’m so sure single folks who are seeing tons of others around them getting married feel exactly what I do. I mean, there’s the ones that hate it because they want to be there or hate the thought of being there, and then there’s us, who aren’t ready for that quite yet, are happy for those who are, but just get tired of seeing it constantly. Sometimes, I get tired enough that I just want to yell out for people AND animals to stop procreating!

Nevertheless, life goes on, especially others’ who don’t concern me a bit and I can’t actually TELL anyone that. It’s silly. Life moving on is great and so is life starting for others. For the time being, though, thank goodness when it comes to the internet, there are temporary filters for this stuff.