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I’m having fun lately. I’ve changed my status on Facebook to “single” and that got all sorts of comments and “likes”, not to mention a few private messages from a couple of guys. That was definitely amusing.

I haven’t really been home and sitting still by myself in several days and I can tell you that I don’t like it. It just gives me too much time to let my mind over think, making me sad or angry. I just spent the past hour or so reorganizing my Facebook photo albums and pruning some photos, especially now that I’m trying to figure out what to do with the memorabilia from my relationship with Devin. For instance, I’ve merged any album that was him-specific with more general albums. I’ll need to start an ex-box soon, too.

I spent a good hour or so going through Google Reader, taking it all the 2011 recap posts that most people have taken to doing today. I honestly can’t remember too much in specifics off the top of my head to provide you with anything remotely comprehensive. I also don’t chronicle my life too well even in photographs to help keep a visual guide, either.

January

• I had my first tooth pulled; my lower left wisdom.
• Bowled my 2nd or 3rd ever 200 game, buzzed no less.
• Opened Veracity MB with Angel, Jennfur & Kristen.

February

• Grandma turned 80!
• Bowling in my company’s bowling tournament.
• Devin’s dad got married in Costa Rica, but I didn’t go .
• Took Drew Bree’s order at work; I had no idea who he was.

March

• My first trip to & from L.A. on the train.
• ZinFest with my parents.
• Bought my new camera.
• My first experience with the flu in concious memory.

April

• Ordered my first Animal Fry from work.
• Watched my first baseball game at Petco Park.
• Experienced a 14 hour day/night in Gaslamp. Way too much drinking!

May

• I made my newest, awesome friends from my bar: Jessica, Missy, Henri & Bobo, amongst others!
• Was named customer service person of the period at work.
• My brother turned 21 and we all went wine tasting in Temecula for the occasion.

June

• Went fruit picking with my Marinara group.
• Devin’s sister was married.
• Got to see Jennifer Love Hewitt sing her own song karaoke (and got it on video!).
• Went up to Silver Lake for the first year without my grandma.

July

• Was surprised by Moon Amtrak day!
• Saw Wil Wheaton at an outdoor screening of “Stand By Me” at Stone Brewery.
• Went to Rocky Horror for the 2nd time ever!

August

• Moved to a new apartment.
• Turned 25 and celebrated at my first gay bar!
• Saw Jimmy Eat World!
• Served Kobe Bryant his food in the drive-thru at work.

September

• My Marinara friends visited me down here in S.D.!
• Experienced the massive blackout that affected most of Southern California
• Snorkeled for the first time.
• Went camping alone with Jess.

October

• Bought my first corset.
• I was served divorce papers on the anniversary of my grandpa’s passing.

Yes, there are two more months that I haven’t mentioned, but that was just the cherry on top of what had been a very tumultuous couple of months with Devin. Everything else since has seemed to be overshadowed by my dealing with that. I experience a bunch of up & downs, of course, but I think I’m not doing too badly in regards. It is what it is and for the best. We just haven’t grown up together and we want different things. Or rather, he doesn’t want to be married and I can’t keep trying to make things work on my own. Time to start anew.

Here’s to a new year with many new beginnings to come…

As a warning, some of my answers may sound sad, depressing and pessimistic. That’s my current mood and I’m allowed. I’ll be okay, though. Don’t fret too much. Here’s my 2011 survey for you to gloss over.

1. What did you do in 2011 that you’d never done before?
As it will come out eventually, I’m going through a divorce. That is what started in 2011 that I’ve never gone through before.

2. Did you keep your New Years’ resolutions, and will you make more for next year?
No. I don’t even think I made one. I’ve spouted off that I’m going to quit smoking for this coming new year. We’ll see how that goes.

3. Did anyone close to you give birth?
No, can’t say I can think of anyone.

4. Did anyone close to you die?
Yes, my theatre teacher’s son

5. What countries did you visit?
None.

6. What would you like to have in 2012 that you lacked in 2011?
Stability.

7. What date from 2011 will remain etched upon your memory, and why?
October 20th. It was the 3rd anniversary of my grandpa’s death and the date I got divorce papers served to me (excellent timing, Devin).

8. What was your biggest achievement of the year?
Fuck… I don’t know.

9. What was your biggest failure?
Marriage?

10. Did you suffer illness or injury?
I had the flu earlier this year. At least, I think it was the flu… it was pretty gnarly, regardless.

11. What was the best thing you bought?
My phone.

12. Where did most of your money go?
The bar.

13. What did you get really, really, really excited about?
The final Harry Potter film and seeing Jimmy Eat World.

14. What song will always remind you of 2011?
As much as I can’t stand it anymore, Adele’s “Someone Like You”

15. Compared to this time last year, are you: Happier or sadder? Older or wiser? Thinner or fatter? Richer or poorer?
Sadder, wiser, thinner, richer.

16. What do you wish you’d done more of?
Living.

17. What do you wish you’d done less of?
Fighting, crying, waiting around.

18. How did you spend Christmas?
With my parents and brother, at home.

19. What was your favorite TV program?
Dexter, Glee, Grey’s Anatomy.

22. Do you hate anyone now that you didn’t hate this time last year?
Yes.

23. What was the best book you read?
I don’t know if I’ve finished a book this year…

24. What was your greatest musical discovery?
I’m not sure… Adele?

A camera.

26. What did you want and not get?
My husband.

27. What was your favorite film of this year?
Deathly Hallows 2.

28. What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you?
I went to a couple of gay bars with my friends in San Diego. I turned 25.

29. What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying?
Being fought for.

30. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2011?
Comfortable but trying to catch up on the times.

31. What kept you sane?
Laughing and friends.

32. Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most?
Jared Leto.

33. What issue stirred you the most?
The people playing the part of victimized Christians. STFU and GTFO.

34. Who did you miss?
The guy I fell in love with.

35. Who was the best new person you met?
All of the friends I’ve really made this year in San Diego <3

36. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2011:
If you’re not being fought for, they’re not worth being fought for.

I spent the last week up in L.A. with friends & family. As much as I love being up there, it was so bittersweet with what I’ve been going through. Christmas just didn’t feel so much like Christmas, not only because of that, but because my extended family get-together was to happen on Christmas day as opposed to eve. It’s not necessarily a bad change, but it just made for things to feel less like it had in previous years. The gatherings are definitely getting larger, though. I think my grandma counted 37 people! There were a lot of people I didn’t even know their names! Thankfully there’s no drama with our gatherings. No fights, no animosity, etc. I’ve always been grateful for that and still am!

I’ll talk about my gatherings with friends in another post, but for now I just want to whine about how I’m feeling sick now. I started feeling it on Monday, but I just figured it was due to my getting drunk on Christmas. Nope, it was the start of the all too familiar settling of mucous in my lungs, and with that comes the labored coughing, trying to get it out and burning from trying to do THAT. Ugh. Monday, my sinuses just felt raw. I presumed it was from the dry air¹ and maybe smoking more than I thought I did. I slept with my humidifier on last night, but that didn’t seem to help much. Either way, it’s time to load up on the Mucinex and Theraflu, as well as continual sleeping with the humidifier.

The one thing that made me feel better was Gunny missed me enough that she slept with me for quite a while last night, at various points. She doesn’t do that on an everyday basis, so yay! haha

I’ll post more positive things later, I’m sure. I said I wanted to whine, and I did, so now it’s time for bed. Thankfully I get to sleep in, as I don’t work until the evening tomorrow!

Not really. However, it did feel that way, mostly due to how slow things seemed to be at work towards the end of my shift. I did get my break a little early on, so that didn’t help things. I’d look down at my watch and groan since I’d have 3 hours left… half of my shift! Ew. Then, as it got closer to the end, time went by even more slowly! It was obnoxious.

I came home, watched Glee and went to my bar and was just bleh. I drank ginger ale and tried to sing with the frog I kind of have sitting in my throat. I exerted myself vocally yesterday by talking a lot and singing some songs that required belting and again today at work, I was fairly talkative. At least, I think I was more talkative than normal, it just felt that way to me. Who knows if that was really the case, though. I definitely made it a relatively early night tonight, and picked up one of my comfort foods¹ on the way home. Thankfully there’s one in the neighborhood that’s open until 2AM. Who’s a happy girl? I’m a happy girl.

Now, I’m just sitting at home, having already blogged earlier this evening as I’m getting back into paid blogging for some extra cash. I don’t have any TV shows to watch, but I could muster up something on Netflix if I would just point and click. Even that feels like effort, but here I am, typing out words and thinking. Silly me. I definitely do need to get through all of the posts left unread on my Google Reader. Then it will be to bed with me!