I had one of those work days where I just wanted to work and I was made to feel inept for most of the day. It sucked. I may not be perfect all of the time, but I’m capable and if you give me a fricken minute, I’ll have everything going as you wish. It didn’t help that I’m hormonal lately.

After telling the husband about my day, he said I wouldn’t make it as an air traffic controller since they’re so big on ragging on people for no good reason. Whatever.

I allow myself to get ragged on a lot. I make dumb comments and can be naive and shit, but I don’t like it happening all the fricken time by anyone and everyone around me! I need a little positive reinforcement once in a while. That’s not to say I’ll break down crying or start telling people off when I get overloaded. The most I may do is give off the “I’m not happy” feeling and be short with responses. I shouldn’t forget to mention that I don’t stay in bad moods for very long! Just leave me alone for a few minutes, let me do my thing and all will be forgotten.

I don’t consider myself as somebody who hold grudges. I’ve held a few, and only recently in life. It’s such a time and energy waster! I’ve definitely learned that and even more so now, I don’t understand why people hold grudges or get so angry over things that don’t seem major (at least to me). Some may consider me sensitive sometimes, but it might be a mismatch of how I’m viewed versus how I view myself.

Overall, I think of myself as a fairly resilient person who doesn’t let a lot get to her often. However, I don’t like being made a fool of or being made fun of – because, really, who does? I protect myself by preempting any strikes by making fun of myself and deliberately making myself the butt of jokes or allowing certain people to make those jabs at me. It still hurts sometimes, though.

I don’t think I’ll be changing things – generally I’m happy how I am. There’s always improvement to be made and that’s what the rest of my life is for